Friday, January 2, 2009

Love, Mama

New year is a really new for me, who commence a new life in Jakarta. Sometimes is feels so difficult for me in this beginning to through it all. A new culture, a new friends and family, a new habitual, and perhaps new thought and perspective. I think about my friends when I still study who have give me much love, and make me do a great changes. I do miss them; Irfan, the boy who always together with me so far, do not contact me again and perhaps dont want to contact me again. I dont know what happen with his mind; My previous life in Jember, And more than that is, my family......
In the last morning, my father, mother, and my sister have gone back to Jember after several days in Jakarta to accompany me...My mother looks so sad, and cried through and through. Indeed my mother never far from me so far, and now She feels so hard to release me.
My mother looks so sad when we should be separate in the Bus station. Me too but I attempt to hide my sad and try to not crying. Oh my God, I really sorry to look my mother.
Tonight is a first night that maybe feels so hard for me. Sometimes I become sad is not because I far from my mother, but because see her so sad. I love my mother, do love her more than I can say. I am swear To be a really really good person and make her happy.

10 comments:

Grace said...

All good moms are like that. But they can sacrifice for the good sake of their children. So, in return, we will just put more effor on making them feel very proud of us.
Be safe always, Niar. Have some new friends there, but keep the old ones. Like a piece of furniture, they became priceless as they grow older.

Mari said...

Moms sacrifice everything for their children, at point of denying themselves. That is how much they love them - their children. When I came here to the US my mom was crying at the airport. I didn't feel the sadness of separating from her then until I got here and felt it for the first time. On my 3rd day here I wanted to go back home to the Philippines, to be with my mom and the rest of my family. I, however, could not afford to do that, and I stayed put.

Niar, in a couple of days you will feel better. Keep in touch with your family as often as you can so the separation will not be too hard on everyone.

Cuspedepita said...

Dear Niar: I am sure that your mother is simultaneously sad and contents. Sad to be for the first time far from you, but it contents of knowledge that happens because you have grown and you must look for your future. To see that it has a daughter who can live single, without its aid, certainly is reason for pride for her, because means that it has educated to you well, and that you are prepared for enfrentarte to your challenges.
All de best for your new life.

Anonymous said...

Hi Niar,
I wish you the best success in Jakarta on whatever you are pursuing. It's always the hardest to get separated from Mom, I had it too, and I still do until now. :)

Thank you for stopping by my blog, I like your blog very much, I add a link from mine to yours, I hope you dont mind.

Btw, I am originally from Jakarta, feel free to ask me anything regarding life in Jkt, ok girl! :)

Tikno said...

Wow... just a few days, you're already nostalgic, my friend.

Anonymous said...

Niar, that is a very touching post. You will be alright as long as you keep a cool head on your shoulders. A very happy new year to you.

ayamlin said...

Happy new years, niar!
thank you for everything last year.
I'm pleased to see you on the blog.
I wanna get along with you this year, too.
by the way do you use English usually?
I don't use English at all.

Ben said...

hi,Niar.
Food crisis happened in China 50 years ago.Now we are in the new age.Hope 2009 will be luck for everyone.

Anonymous said...

Welcom to Jakarta Niar, Happy new year, wishing you all the best for your future.

L said...

Hi Niar, This is lorflor...I am getting a new blog address. I will let you know what it is when I get it! Hope all is well with you and that you feel comfort and make lots of new friends in your new home.