Well December is coming with bringing some nice and warmth atmospheres in Jakarta. Everything about Christmas has been visible since several weeks ago in some streets, malls, office buildings and at some programs in the television. For myself, December and its Christmas nuance has brought me a happiness as well. I like some Christmas songs sounded in some areas, I like Poinsettia grows everywhere and some people wishes about White Christmas - although actually I am not really celebrate it.
I am a moslem lady. Most of my family are moslem as well, and some part of them are christian. The christian believers in my family are come from my Father's family. I have embraced moslem actually since I was a kid. I have been a Christian since I was a Kid before to be a moslem. But I don't know what my reason made a changes on my religion at that time. I just remember that I did not go to the church anymore and choose to mengaji (reading Quran) at Mosque.
Actually, If everybody asked me why I have to alter my religion I don't have a good answer, because as I said before it was too young for me when I made a decision and I don't know what my specific reason took that decision.
Look into my point of view when I was a kid and now is surely different. For me now I have a distinction with what it's called faith, religion, and personal relation with God. I don't know but in my understanding people who strong with religion is not certainly have a good faith as well. And it also doesn't means they have a good understanding about the real relationship with God.
In my experience, I often see the people who have a good faith, realize about the presence of God in his / her life although they don't do their habitual worship well. Or vice versa, people who do a strong worship but not wise enough, or still commit the things that painful or make anyone else uncomfortable, for example. That's why I see that having religion, do a strong worship doesn't always means make people good or become so faith and have a 'pure heart'. But I don't say it's always happen to all of people.
That is why actually people need to look deeper, more sensitive to their surrounding, have a control with what they do and even with what they feel and think. Not only do what religion ask without the right direction.
I am a moslem lady, but I quite interest in what Christian teach or Buddhist teach. I like what bible says about love and affection, what Buddha says about humanity. I think I have something else that fills my heart and enrich my spirit. I also more often pray with my own language to God than read a verses that I don't really understand it's meaning, so that I can feel a more real communication with God.
As a human being, it's a duty to do an obligation which our religion asks, but we have to build our own faith that is not always can be achieved by do a worship strongly, but by our heart, understanding that we can gain by our wisdom. And most important making a relationship with God that is not always can be achieved by good worship as well but once again by our heart, our pure love in our self to God.
Marry Christmas. God blesses you and universe.
